No, not you.. but "Just shut up." was a mantra of mine a few days ago.
You see, my job involves seeing and/or drug testing many criminals that are on home detention. And often (and unfortunately for me and society as a whole), it often involves seeing them interact (usually horribly) with their children; as well as encountering many pregnant women.
As you might imagine, it really gets under my skin. Day in and day out, I watch these women; who typically are mothers several times over. Many no longer have custody of their children.. but just keep on getting pregnant. Some even actively use drugs while pregnant. And they ALL seem to ask me if I have children.
But the worst ones, are the ones that are so excited to be pregnant. They talk about it non-stop from the moment they walk in, til the moment they leave my office.
And that happened this week.
She walks in, filling out her paperwork.
"Well, I'm pregnant! Isn't that exciting? I tell you, God just knows when you're ready. I'm so excited. Such a blessing. God just knows."
The infertile atheist was already annoyed. But she keeps going, as I try to just smile and nod.
"After using meth for almost ten years, I didn't think I could get pregnant.. But God knew I was ready. God can do anything."
*sigh*
Yep, of course.. God wants the unwed meth head, on home detention, earning minimum wage.. to have a baby. But clearly thinks it's a bad idea for my husband and I; with no criminal record, gainful employment, and a viable plan for the future.
Now, I know not all my readers are atheist, so I'll refrain from posting the many vile things I was actually thinking about she could do with her kind and giving "God." Suffice it to say, I was annoyed.. pissed even. But this kind of thing makes my job nearly impossible for me to get through some days.
And it's precisely the reason that I get so annoyed when people say things like, "Everything happens for a reason."
Because it doesn't.
Some shitty people have kids. Some abusive people have kids. And some people that would be wonderful parents, don't get to. It's not a divine plan. It's a crap shoot.
